sucks

it sucks that everytime i like a girl there's something restraining anything from happening. SO MANY TIMES. on the smaller crushes i usually end up sabotaging everything because im afraid of comitting. all the other time the girls like Andy instead. or sometimes they already had a boyfriend. i remember once the communication was so bad she said i didnt know how to talk to girls and i asked too many questions. that was because i was asking questions because i was trying to get her to say at least two sentences in reply because she always replied with "ok". that is so annoying. my relationships suck so bad, sometimes i think God made me to be lonely, but i guess that's okay, i just want to know if it was to be this way or not, so i could stop trying and save the time to do something productive.